TRAPPED!

It’s happening again......

It always starts like this, in cramped up places with a crowd of people.

I feel an urge to run out

But my body is stiff,

My breathing feels limited, and controlled, as if I’m scared

Maybe i am scared, 

Scared of the amount of people in this tiny space. 

I search for a corner with some empty space

But there isn’t any.

I can hear my heart beat getting loud,

So loud that it‘s the only sound I can hear…

lub dub lub dub

My body is shaking

It feels small and incapable. 

My insides feel trapped in my body,

I feel trapped in this room

lub-dub-lub-dub….....

There’s not enough space for anything here

I want to run out, breathe some fresh air,

I want to escape this place

lub dub lub dub lub dub lub dub lub dub…

I want someone to hold me and tell me it's going to be okay

To look me in the eye, and bring comfort to me.

In this moment I realise how much I crave to feel loved…

By- Misha Charlotte Francis